Sunday, March 17, 2024

Narcissistic Abuse: Psychological Profile of Violent Narcissistic Femme Fatales

Psychological Profile of Violent Narcissistic Femme Fatales  


Even though violent narcissists are primarily statistically portrayed as a male characteristic, women are also a large part of this psychopath population.  Violent Female narcissists at the core carry the identical traits of narcissism but the steps leading up to physical violence occur in  a slightly different manner.  


The difference with psychopathic women narcissists is that they commit acts of relational aggression. They use passive aggressive tactical behavior as a means to control.  If they feel they are losing control over you, women will become more relationally aggressive escalating to physical violence.  They are masters at manipulating circumstance.  They are masters at bait and switching blame, too.   They are charming enough to talk their way out of law enforcement jams when they were the ones attacking their male counterparts.  Unfortunately, the perception of male abusers works to a women’s advantage as most law enforcement will feel as though the “man” in the relationship was abusive which triggered the crazy in the narcissistic violent woman.


Relational aggression can also be known as social bullying. Psychopathic women narcissists will attack and sabotage their victim’s social standing, personal relationships and try and manipulate how others see their victim (with false claims trying to expose them for something that would hurt them).    Back in the day, this is known as emotional black mail.  This type of relational aggression will worsen with time.   A psychopathic narc women may threaten to expose their victims and not act on it initially.  However to wear that victim down, they follow through and decimate their character regardless of any consequences it may bring to themselves.  Anytime a woman psycho. Narcissist feels as though she is losing control over her victim, she will ramp up the relational aggression and attack the victim where it hurts them the most which resorts to physical harm, destruction of property or physical destruction of anything that is closeby (including other people).  


If a psychopathic women narc is on the fence of completely snapping or has a fear of going to jail, she may resort to cyber-bullying and forcing their victims to “write” hate speech to the individuals in which she is trying to extricate from the victims life.   Online and social media is a women narc’s best friend when it comes to spewing hatred and vitriol.  They will have into the victims email, pretend to be the victim and send hate mail to the victims contact.  As we all know that kind of hacking is illegal.  If they can’t hack your email, they will try and force you (with great success) to hand over the passwords to your computer.  


We have to remember that the basics for abuse still exist in these black widow psychopathic narcissistic abusive relationships.  Controlling your life and circumstances creates isolation and outside influences so your self esteem is worn down to acceptance of being trapped and hopeless with no where to go.  Isolating you from outside influences is the venus fly trap for this black widow.


Narcissists in general (no matter what their gender identity) salivate at any chance to launch a smear campaign against you as their target.  Those smear campaigns can last for decades. This wearing down of your soul as a victim is like death by a thousand papercuts.  


By the way, everything mentioned in this chapter will have a chapter countering these topics on how to handle it as you leave safely. 


Women Narcissists are also unique as they take coercive control to the extreme.  First things first!  Coercive control is illegal in the USA.  Other countries take coercive control much more seriously.  Many people don’t know that you can call the police for legitimate coercive control and intimidation.  There are criteria that have to be met to be convicted of that crime.  However, most states have a prison stay and a fine for it.


Meanwhile what is coercive control?  Coercive control is a pattern of consistent acts of assault, threats, intimidation or other abuse that is premeditated to harm, punish or frighten their victim.   Unfortunately, as you may know,  coercive control works.  This controlling behavior will isolate you, exploit you and deprive you of your independence and regulate your every day comings and goings.  


Women narcs will threaten you if you don’t give them your location,  they will emotionally black mail you by exposing a lie about you.  Did you, in order to save yourself from social embarrassment, financial torture or abuse,  hand over the keys to your autonomy to try and manage their behavior? Does this sound familiar to you? 


Have you been coerced to give your location and whereabouts every second of every minute of every day?  Has your narc deprived you of your autonomy to do as you please without scrutiny?  Has she watched over every second of your life?  These narcissistic women hounds of hell will hunt you down.  They have a tendency to stalk you at every turn.  And when you try and turn off your location or disappear off their radar they will abuse you in some fashion or form. 


You may have forgotten that you will never be able to control someone else’s behavior.  And there is no such thing as damage control when it comes to psychopathic women narcs.  These poisonous medusas have absolutely no fear about going to jail or doing what they need to do so they don’t lose their main narcissistic supply.  If you look at her, she will turn you to stone.    And Guys, you will have to be Perseus to your Medusa to defeat her.  


Recall the myth of Medusa:  by looking into Medusa’s eyes, she could turn you into stone.  She was defeated as Perseus’ clever solution was to use his shield as a mirror (given to him by the Goddess of Love - Athena)  so that he could see Medusa without looking at her directly.   She looked at HERSELF in the mirror…. And turned herself into stone.   If that is not the definition of love conquering all, I don’t know what is! 


The Myth of Medusa is so appropriate because the worst fear of any female narcissist is being exposed.  Perseus held a “mirror” up to her face by exposing her ways.   Perseus still had quite a fight on his hands to defeat her…but Exposing Medusa to herself is what ultimately made for the “big win.” Perseus ended up cutting off Medusa’s head.


Psychopathic women narc are sneaky bitches who can manipulate circumstances to deprive you of food.  If they want to starve you, they will start an argument just before dinner, go off the rails, you lose your appetite and then she will throw all the food away.   Name calling,  professional sabotage,  verbal abuse are also in the psychopathic woman narc’s repertoire. If emotional manipulation, verbal abuse, threats and intimidation don’t work.  She will graduate and escalate to physical aggression.


Also I’m not trying to put fear into you but in a clinical sense, the behavioral aspects for murderers and narcissists are rather similar.    Psychopathic Murderers and Narcissists use the same mind games to manipulate circumstances to perpetrate abuse and violence on their victims. Women tend to be the Charming Psychopathic Narcissists. 

Most men love a charming, sexy, sweet intelligent woman.  The kind of woman who gives you compliments, attention and encouragement.  The love mask is on and won’t come off for quite awhile.   The problem?  You won’t now if she is hiding violent narcissistic tendences.  The first killer that comes to mind who was known as “charming” was Ted Bundy.   They are charming and have the ability to get you to trust them. Throw in a few days of great sex..and you’re hooked…Line…and sinker.  


However,  definitively predicting who will become a psychopathic violent narcissist who commits acts of violence is still impossible.  There are traits often associated with psychopaths and narcissists that are very close on the spectrum.    If they lived in the same neighborhood, psychopaths and narcissists would be neighbors encroaching on each other’s property.


Here are the down and dirty similarities


  • Emotional Detachment & lack of empathy.  Psychopaths are narcs have arrested ability to share feelings of others.  They place a different value on human life and regard it objectively.  They consider other humans as objects as a means to their own personal gain.  They may view targets (you) as a tool, not a person with emotional capacity and a life that is worth living autonomously on your own.

  • Callousness and unemotional.  In a psychotic break you will feel the wrath of a psychopath as easily as you can with a narcissist.  But in every day life when they are stewing in their own lack of mental health, you will see callousness and a lack of remorse for hurting people.  If they are pre-meditating an emotional abuse assualt upon you they don’t care how you feel.  As long as they are able to rage to meet their own end, they don’t care if they hurt you……and in hindsight feel justified for hurting you over all.   

  • Your Medusa will also be a liar.  They will distort the truth and convince you they are telling the truth.  And you will never be able to tell if she is lying about other people because she wont give you or allow you the change to check in without outside sources to figure out the truth.   If you try to get to the truth of the matter, she will pull out her isolating tactics and mix it in with relational aggression and stop you from knowing the truth at all.

  • Your Narcissistic Black Widow will be the life of the party in public….same with psychopathic murderers, too.  They garner trust to gain control.

  • They have low impulse control.  They will go to any means to keep control over you.  Their anxiety attacks look alot like stalking and driving around to try and see where you are, hacking into your email and other devices to keep track of you and act out without considering the consequences of their actions.They will put GPS trackers on your vehicle and track you location.  They are desparate to know everything to keep you under their thumb.  The more information that have about you as you are going about your day, the more they can use it against you to control you.    If they fear going to Jail, you may be able to de-escalate them…..but don’t do it without the police being there.

  • Your Psycho Narcissist will have a keen disregard for safety and be reckless.   They endanger others emotionally and do not care!

  • Their need to admiration comes in the form of taking credit for everything the two of you do together.   You are just a dog on a leash to them in social settings ..and your job in social settings is to make them look and feel good.  You are invisible to them.  


The takeaway from this chapter is that psychopathic narcissistic women are a dangerous combination of personality disorders.  They are deeply disturbed individuals whose character traits are shared between psychopaths and narcissistic abusers.  They are most certainly unpredictable and can be dangerous.    


Here’s one thing that I highly encourage you to understand.   If you are living with a psycho narc, you HAVE TO FOCUS ON WHAT ISN’T HAPPENING in order to keep yourself sane.   Don’t say “what if”.  That thinking will continue to keep you in the abuse.  However, this chapter, as hard as it is to digest will hopefully help you understand the mind of a psychopathic narcissistic (wo)man to be able to leave once and for all.


This is the worst part of coercive control.

Narcissistic Abuse: How Bad is (S)he

Narcissistic Abuse: How bad is (S)he

Where is all this narcissism coming from? Seems like there is an “all of a sudden” epidemic, doesn’t it?  Narcissism wasn’t hardly discussed as little as 20 years ago.  Mental health issues came with a stigma and mental health issues were taboo in culture.  50 years ago, mental health issues were swept under the rug. Meanwhile 40 years ago narcissistic personality disorder was almost impossible to identify and attach to individuals with those characteristics.  The criterion for narcissism wasn’t defined and most often misunderstood.  Personality disorders were also taboo in their discussion of them.   And Narcissistic Personality Disorder was “out” there and something to be “scared” of.  Briefly, personality disorders are characterological.    This is a mental health condition defined by consistent and durable patterns of inner experience and behavior that are earmarked by the delineation from normative culture, leading to dysfunctional behavior impairment in social, personal and occupational settings.   


Narcissism as an epidemic has been garnering more and more attention in recent years.    


The problem with the spotlight being on narcissism and the people attached to it… many have no clue as to what true narcissism is.   This label has become a buzzword and has attached itself to every person who has a self inflated sense entitlement.


First of all I want to apologize for those people that have no clue about what true violent narcissistic abuse truly is.   In my own experience,  those who threw the word around like snow falling from the sky would trigger me. Their carelessness of their understanding would upset me!  I would sit in the stew of true narcissistic abuse and feel alone and afraid while others who had no clue throwing that word around like they knew what they were talking about.  Amiright? 


Even the words to describe narcissism to an accurate enth degree is troublesome. There are no words for the violent narcissist who rapes his victim, stares at them with the blackest eyes on the planet with a knife in their hand.  There are no words to capture that feeling of despair.   And for that reason, I am inspired to “hear and you see you accurately”  by putting the severity scale out here and properly label the abuser in your life.


Narcissism has always been present in society.    Many of you know how the word Narcissist came into being.   And if not, I will try to succinctly tell the sad story of Narcissus and Echo. You are playing the Role of Echo trying to find your voice. Narcissus’ origins will also tell you how your own abuser came to be abusive.  This is over simplified in some ways but perfect in others.


The Greek Poet tells us the story: Narcissus was born beautiful to a River God and a beautiful nymph.  The prophecy over Narcissus' life was that he would reach an old age if he never recognized himself.  Narcissus knew he was the most beautiful of all the universe.   He was shown favoritism growing up.  He was played as the favorite.  The doting parents are always reinforcing his Greek Godlike status.  Narcissus became entitled and never ever returned any favor to those who love him.   He manipulated his circumstances to keep the attention coming.   And in his failure to recognize himself and to manipulate his lovers and followers, he continued on into this state of mind.   Until……Echo came into the picture


Echo was a nymph whose fate was destined to only repeat the sounds and last words of others.   The poor dear would fall in love with Narcissus just like all the rest.  She followed him through the woods and sadly could not speak… Her frustration was overwhelming.   She felt so sad and alone and invalidated that she could not be heard, seen and feel the love that she gave him with all of her heart.


“Finally” she said.  Narcissus tried to call Echo.  And the only thing Echo could do was repeat his call.    Narcissus thought her to be equally as beautiful and wanted to charm her into his world.  He cried out, “Echo, where are you?”  She returned with the reply, “Echo, where are you?” even though in her head she was thinking, “I’m right over here.”    She was so frustrated that she was able to find Echo and without any words tried to hold him.  Narcissus rejected her and Echo ran to hide.  He thought she was beautiful anyway and wanted her affection.   


Narcissus looked and looked and nowhere was she to be seen.  Echo’s body then wasted away while she held that torch and pined for him.  She then is now forever hiding in forest, the leaves and caves of the world.  Her body is gone but her bones became rocks.  Her voice remains and can be heard but can never be seen or taken seriously.  She is mocked often at the peaks of canyons and mountains. And Narcissus laughs with those who mock her.  No one believes that Echo even existed because the only thing she can do is repeat anyone’s last words.


Since Narcissus denied everyone his love and showed no mercy, the gods fated that Narcissus could ever have anything he loved.  And being the self entitled jerk that called out…. Echo would see him when he hollered at the top of his lungs in the forest, “I love you” which would echo back as “I love you”. He fell into the trap of his own admiration.


One day while hunting, he came upon a pool of water to get a drink.   When he went to take a drink, he fell in love with his own reflection reflected back at him from the water. He tried to grab the image he saw and couldn’t..which made him more infatuated with himself.  Crazy in love with himself,  Narcissus stayed by the water and wasted away.  Echo witnessed this and returned to see him wasting away.   Every time Narcissus would say farewell to his reflection,  she echoed his words.  


The love of Echo’s life was destroyed.  She always came back to him.  No matter how much she was mocked, hurt and no matter what he said.   Echo always had a fear of expressing herself and suppressing her feelings. Echoism is a new coined phrase and personality trait characterized by fear of attention to obtain love and approval.  


Right now you are Echoist and cannot find your voice.   There are levels of Echoism in individuals who are victims of Narc Abuse as much as there are levels of severity of Narcissism in those who embody those psychopathic traits.


Several factors contribute to the rise of narcissism in modern day culture.  Facebook was launched in 2004.   Before social media, individuals may have experienced narcissism in a manner in which wasn’t as severe. However her are some contributing factors as to why Narcissistic Abuse is on the Rise and the perception of Narcissism as an epidemic


All the World’s a Stage isn’t it.  Back in the 70’s the rock group “Rush” wrote the best lyrics to describe this phenomenon of this song title.  The lyrics are this:

Living on a lighted stage, 

Approaches the unreal

For those who think and feel

In touch with some reality beyond the gilded cage

Cast in this unlikely role

Ill-equipped to act

With insufficient tact

One must put up barriers to keep oneself intact

Living in the limelight, the universal dream

For those who wish to seem

Those who wish to be, must put aside the alienation

Get on with the fascination

The real relation, the underlying theme

Living in a fisheye lens

Caught in the camera eye

I have no heart to lie

I can't pretend a stranger is a long-awaited friend



Social media platforms are a large culprit in emboldening the idea of self importance.  At any moment in time you can be the star of your own personal show.    Seeking validation through the amount of “likes”, comments and followers. 


The reward center in the brain is a powerful thing.  We have four chemicals in our brains that drive our mood.  One of them is the “happy” chemical called oxytocin.    Just like rats who are rewarded with food for good behavior become motivated to figure out the maze to reach the reward.  Oxytocin is released in the brain making them feel better.  Same with the Narcissist.  This basic behavior modification is emphasized with each validation they get on their own personal stage.


The reward generated by social interactions is foremost important in pro and anti-social behaviors creating levels of severity in Narcissism.  Couples with upbringing and genetics came to create a violent narcissistic person.   Using depravity and reward in childhood is the perfect storm for creating the abusive narc in the world.


This is where the levels of severity come from.   I’m giving all the credit to Dr Craig Malkin who I hold in high esteem as a colleague and author of “Rethinking Narcissism” as he is the guru on the variance and levels of severity of Narcissism.  I completely agree with his analysis in regard to the ideology that Narcissism is not black and white.  It’s not like you either are a Narc or not a Narc.  There are levels of severity and we ALL can be on the scale at one point of our lives.


However, being the victim of the abuse, you are the Echoist.  Malkin's Narcissism Spectrum Model, offers you a rough sense of where you fall on the spectrum.


The scale of Narcissistic Severity is on a scale from 1 to 10.  Being a “10” on Malkin’s scale indicates complete psychopathological narcissism with full blown malignant narcissism dishing out abuse is the norm.   And violence abuse is common at this level.


Most people who are neither Narcs or Echoists sit at a “5” on the scale.  They have a healthy balance of self confidence with enough humility and empathy to appreciate others. Their relationships are balanced and they have a good understanding of who they are and are able to love others as they love themselves.  


If you are a “4” on the scales, you may be having the occasional bad day and feel poorly about yourself but end up snapping out of it when life or the bad day passes.

Anything below a “4” on the scale promotes co-dependency behavior and being a “1” is utter loss of self.


On the converse side … sitting at a “6” on the spectrum indicates that you may feel a little bit proud of yourself.  And that’s ok. You feel proud about a job promotion or something that you may have done well.  But you still hold others as a part of the overall “team” for your life success.  You may stay sitting at a “6” for a while as you walk on cloud 9 for this accomplishment but come back down when the feeling wears off.  You feel good about yourself in a balanced way.. 


Sitting at a “7” on the scale. I like to joke and say that most artists, musicians and writers always stay at this level. LOL!    Nonetheless… this is the gray area where Narc behavior is somewhat noticed but not completely recognized by other people.


If a person is an “8”, others may want to start running away. As the red flags for classic narcissism are apparent enough to warrant cutting off all contact.


At a “9” Run like hell and “10” run like hell like your hair's on fire.


At the bottom of this post is a diagram for the severity spectrum


Sadly the older narcissists become, the worse that they get! Women narcissists will however, use other means of "coervice control" than men. They will manipulate and be more sneaky than male Narcs. They will use emotional black mail most commonly to seek out and destroy their victims.


Love love love this diagram that puts the levels in perspective.    Giving Kudos to these authors for perfecting this artwork for explanation.  Published in Personality and Social Psychology Review 2018 The Narcissism Spectrum Model: A Synthetic View of Narcissistic Personality

Z. KrizanA. Herlache




Saturday, March 16, 2024

Narcissistic Abuse: Spiritual Bullies



PulPit Bulls: Covert Spiritual Abuse by Narcissistic Preachers

A quick look throughout the Bible will bring to mind scripture about pride, arrogance, boasting and condemnation. I will not reference them here for it will take away the purpose of this post. If you really want them to back this up, I would be happy to send them to you privately.

I don't throw labels around very often. In fact, I am anti-label. But in order to have message deliverance in normative language, I will use labels to make explanation more concise to serve the purpose of my diatribe: Pulpit Bullies. Don't get me wrong, I find it interesting that there is a PIT BULL in Pulpit Bullies! Aggressive words, condescending tones, backhanded name calling, subtle backhanded compliments, gaslighting and dismissal… the bombastic arrogance that comes from the need to be right..and all that comes with manipulative narcissistic PulPit Bulls.

Collin Hanson, an expert on bullying with supportive scripture states, "For far too long we’ve tolerated this kind of leadership that should plainly disqualify pastors by several standards in Titus 1:7–8. Why do we think it’s okay for pastors to abuse their members and fellow leaders so long as they don’t steal money or have sex outside marriage?"

But the abuse is far more subversive and subtle than being punched in the face or witnessing a violent act of spousal abuse.

When we think of Pastors who lead their sheep, we think of Christ in his manner of doing so. Gentle, kind, patient and holding people firmly accountable in grace. Jesus was firm but he was not mean. Jesus didn’t use language that would hurt, harm or shame them. He didn’t use language that called his “friends” apathetic, ignorant or “out of touch with reality and truth.” He did not define us in words used that were against the normative way of thinking.

Spiritual abuse is most associated with sex and money scandal. Little attention is paid to the subtle narcissistic tendencies that an Aggressive PulPit Bully uses to manipulate and shame the people who follow. And those who have fallen for those tactics will not be able to see it.


Of course this also needs to be said that the majority of pastors, guide their flocks with gentle compassion, truth and love. The time has come to NOT ignore those who shepherd those flocks righteous indignation and any one opposing the pulpit bully’s theory will be shut down. That is the manipulation tactic to gain control over people which is also a toxic connection to those who can’t see it. Pulpit Bullies get all hot and bothered when others see through their toxic micro aggression and call others “too sensitive” (Gray, 2014).


However, and sadder still, the followers who don’t see the toxic way in which a PulPit Bull is coaxing them deeper by manipulation is even worse. For they do not recognize bullying as a problem, they see it as strong leadership and follow right along like sheeple to reinforce the narcissistic preacher bully’s theories as correct. Love is always blind and that is no different for followers of pulpit bullies who are toxic to winning souls over.


This week alone I have had three agnostic and atheists private message me about a Tennessee Preacher who used language to shame them and condemn their position on faith. They reached out to me as a believe in Christ and said to me, “if that preacher is what being saved is all about, I will stay an atheist.” If they are domineering bullies (Matt 20:25; 1 Tim 3:3; 1 Pet 5:3) there’s a reason for people to feel this way. Such behavior wounds much more deeply than most people can possibly imagine.


Three times this bombastic preacher was called out for poor behavior, judging people of differing opinions and then was told, “I will not argue with those who refuse to see the truth”. That’s gaslighting right there. Who said this person was arguing? This person was stating an opinion just as much as this bully was. However, the bully stands in defensive mode and shuts down anyone who opposes his beliefs or thinking.


Lost souls are not going to run headfirst to Jesus if they meet a pulpit bull. They will run like their hair is on fire and justify their atheism or agnosticism as their path because quite honestly, who wants to be condemned for their beliefs? Who wants to be told they are an ignoramus or be disrespected for just being a human being who believes differently than they do?


Exploring individuals who want to learn about faith will not tolerate PulPit Bulls who say they are “ignorant”, “apathetic”, “wrong”, or are mocked. Pulpit Bulls use proclamations of condescension of opposing views to call attention to themselves. “It’s National Atheist Day!” is one such proclamation by a PulPit Bull that stirred controversy from the atheists who were watching. It made one of those atheists BLOCK this preacher. Now what next for her salvation? His flock followed suit mocking the National Atheists Day when the Bible teaches that individuals should sit with her like the woman at the well.


And this Chump Gang represented something much more than small-town politics or position on social media. His mocking was a Prime example of gaslighting, shut down, judgment, bullying and trying to connect backward with a lost sheep who may have asked more questions if she wasn’t RUN OFF by the “preacher almighty.”


Here are Four Passages that support this. The Bible for Believers is the inerrant infallible word of God. For those who don’t believe this, the Bible holds amazing Wisdom as a life guide. The Scriptures are quite clear: it is enough. Sex and money are not the only issues. How shepherds (mis)treat their sheep is a key part of ministry qualifications. Consider just four

verses.


1. “Therefore an overseer must be . . . not violent but gentle” (1 Tim. 3:3).

While at first glance this qualification may seem to refer to physical abuse only, the Greek word for “violent” (πλήκτης) is more all-encompassing. The HCSB gets it right: “Not a bully, but gentle.”


2. “Shepherd the flock of God . . . not domineering over those in your charge, but being examples to the flock” (1 Pet. 5:3).


Again, notice that Peter recognizes an inherent tendency in leaders to wield their authority wrongly, through domination, intimidation, or heavy-handed leadership. The Greek word here (κατακυριεύω) is literally “lord it over.” In contrast, the shepherd of God’s flock leads by example, not by force.


Narcissictic Preachers have no idea how not to lead by covert manipulative force. Covert in the fact that they may present as shy, charming spiritual leaders. They are affable but have an agenda. They are charming but seeth with deceit under neath it all. Beautiful sheep’s clothing is really a wolf knocking at the door. A covert Narcissist is someone who craves attention but lacks empathy for differences of views in a consistent manner every single time (such as shutting down anyone who differs in opinion or just overtly telling them to ‘just scroll on by’ and ignores their accountability for being generally a real asshole).



3. “You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their great ones exercise authority over them. It shall not be so among you. But whoever would be great among you must be your servant” (Matt. 20:25).


Jesus says this soon after some of his disciples request positions of power at his right and left. So, he clarifies the manner of leadership for the church. He begins again with the negative: not like the Gentiles who “lord it over,” but in the spirit of a “servant.” On this score, it’s noteworthy that many biblical leaders wrap their identity around the term servant (Rom 1:1; Titus 1:1; James 1:1; 2 Pet. 1:1).


4. “And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone” (2 Tim. 2:24).

The prohibition against being quarrelsome does not rule out disagreement, debate, or even vigorous theological exchanges. But it does rule out language or behavior that is belittling, abusive, harsh, or derogatory. In contrast, the qualified Christian leader is “kind to everyone.”

In summary, qualified leaders should be characterized as follows:

Not a bully, but gentle


Not domineering, but setting an example.


Not lording it over, but being a servant.


Not quarrelsome, but kind



But the gaslighter bully preacher will argue they are not being quarrelsome by saying they won’t argue. Which is quarrelsome anyway. It is lording their opinion over another and saying “please obey me as your leader and if you don’t like it, I’ll shut you down or ask you to just keep scrolling.” When a Pastor demands their way in everything, tolerates no dissent or difference of opinion and ousts, shuts down and anyone who disobeys him, they have a tendency to intimidate dissent by a barrage of scripture to try and justify their position. This is called “hiding your abuse behind God’s word” in the rawest form. Then the wearing down tactics start. Which is common for any kind of abuse where the abuser bombards their position over and over and over wearing the target down where the target eventually agrees and gets sucked in or walks away in anger and disgust. Either way, the Bully Preacher wins and feels victorious that HIS self righteousness and spiritual abuse is backed by the Almighty Word of God and that the target is “wrong”.


Bully preachers also dominate other preachers in their area. They will not allow other balanced leaders who leadership is an advocacy of faith to state their opinions either. The Bully Preacher’s opinion is the only opinion that counts.


John III specifically calls attention to Spiritual Bullying. In a nutshell because looking it up can be a pain, John III says that Preacher Bullies reject outside interference, bringing accusation against the opposition, and putting people out (or making then run away) when they oppose him.


Bully Preachers have the need to be right and debate semantics to create distractions from the real issue at hand. Did Jesus raise from the dead on Friday? No, he did not.. Historically at least. But those Bully Preachers want to DISTRACT others by sucking them into a toxic relationship so followers will jump on the bandwagon and join the fuckery because they are being HOOKED like a fish staring at a shiny lure in the water.

OH LOOK A SQUIRREL! LOOK OVER HERE SHEEPLE.. Never mind that the preacher is using language and undertones of abusive manipulation to gain power. Servant Leadership is not a word I would use for PulPit Bulls!


Today is not the day to go into the upbringing of said PulPit Bulls because that could take forever. But I do want to mention that Narcissistic Leadership Churches present a spectrum of tendencies. What that means is that PulPit Bulls are on a scale of narcissism that exceeds normal pride and humility. They are stepping into the pathological tendencies of psychopathology that are extremely divergent from normative or desirable leadership behaviors.


Dr. Craig Malkin, Harvard School of Professional Psychology will also agree that Narcissism will have tendencies ranging on a spectrum from 1 to 10: and 10 being completely criminally psychopathological to the point of being dangerous to society. The average person on their best day and even being proud of their accomplishments will sit around “5”. 6 if you have something you like to be proud of. Preachers, leaders and other individuals in positions of power typically sit around a 6. Sadly the statistics don’t lie either. Stanford conducted a study of narcissism and abuse of powers in leadership positions (that includes leaders of countries and those in pastoral roles) will stay about a 6.5 on the Narcissistic spectrum on a constant basis. When you are a “7” on the scale, those who are experienced in discerning a Preacher Bully will see the red flags. And with a preacher sitting at an 8 – that is stepping into the pathological hell fire pretty darn quick!

Narcissistic Preachers are really amazing at blinding their flock, especially those who make proclamations on Social media. The ones who agree with the Bully will get Love Bombing, Affirmations, support, encouragement and Scriptural support (given out of context) to justify the Narcissitic Bull Preacher. The Shining Squirrel Effect (I may have to trademark that) is that these folks will “ fall head over heels in love” with the Narcissistic Bully Preacher because they really don’t know him in any other capacity or personally. Narcissistic Spiritual Abusers are masterful at keeping relationships surface to show off the “shining squirrel over there!”


This sadly speaks volumes to the individuals who fall for the bullying tactics but are blind to it. Those who don’t see bullying statistically most likely have their own cognitive dissonance to resolve. They fall prey to believing that condemnation of Holy Fire and Brimstone is “the way, the truth and the light”. Arrested spiritual development starts to seep into the flock under the leadership of a PulPit Bully. The Pulpit Bully then praises them for being so “correct, righteous and right.” They stop growing spiritually and they never leave..and the cycle continues. The Preacher love bombs, affirms and sings their praises. And why is it so important for a Narcissistic Preacher Bully to keep his flocks under his wings? One simple answer: EXPOSURE that he is a fraid, a fake, an abuser and a narcissist. Exposure is the Narcissistic Bully Preacher’s worst enemies… and if you expose one, you better get ready for the largest smear campaign of your life! Narcissist Bully Preachers hate exposure, they would rather lose their salvation than be exposed on this earth. And you have seen a Narcissist be exposed, then you know what I am talking about.


So gotta keep those masses down, down, down. Way down they do with the Narcissist Bully Preacher! Is the Narc. Preacher have salavation? Yep! They do, they are still saved by the blood of Christ and that is permanent and that will never undo what Jesus did on the Cross. That’s the amazing thing about Grace! Christ grants Grace through Salvation. Sin is sin in God’s eyes… the severity of which we give it value is a ‘human thing.” However, that doesn’t make Spiritual Abuse ok. But for those who wonder, those who are saved by the blood of Christ will be still saved. But I can guarantee that the Good Lord is an amazing Parent to His children and those Bullies will be dealth with as God states that Vengeance is his.


I digress…


Historical accounts of churches have had these problems since the new testament was written. That is why it is mentioned in scriptures so much! Corinthians shows us this in Paul’s letters, Galatians as well and petty egoism in III John have been with us from the beginning! When members of the body of Christ see through the bullpit, typically they will leave that church because leadership is no longer following the Will of God.


Is there a solution to Narcissitic Preachers who commit acts of spiritual abuse on members of their flock? Of course there is. But taking the Narcissictic PulPit Bull into a process to make them aware of themselves is NOT the answer. They will continue love the discontent that you are spewing at them as a way to gain attention and their much needed love supply from the disdain that you are throwing at them: they want and love to see you squirm in your emotional discomfort and mock you for being wrong spiritually. Talking the Narc. Bully Preacher is like trying to herd a cat.


But there is nothing wrong at stating the facts about how a Preacher may be a PulPit Bull who herds shining squirrels to throw their flock off balance. If your pastor or preacher exhibits any of these things on a regular basis, this is spiritual abuse. How can you spot one… watch how the preacher handles differences of opinion in any situation: watch how that preacher handles his words or if he/she shuts down opposing views. Abusers come in many forms and abusive tactics are no different than domestic violence or in any other domain where abuse can be prevalent.


The shining squirrel over there that you eventually see just might be the only way you save yourself . A Shepherd wouldn’t call one of his sheep “ignorant or wrong”. A Shepherd would tend to the needs of the sheep and not shame it for existing.



Sunday, March 3, 2024

Narcissistic Abuse: When to Break No Contact

Going no contact from a Narcissist or an individual who has pathological narcissist traits will help prevent you from further emotional abuse.  

You hear this all the time that you have to go no contact with your narcissistic abuser. I understand that you may love this person yet,  and it's really difficult to go no contact (especially if your heart has not caught up with your head yet) on this whole idea that you need to be in silence with them.

Sounds Impossible doesn't it?  Going no contact with the narcissist in your life that you still love?  Here are the basics of going no contact & everything you need to know to keep yourself safe from further narcissistic and/or emotional abuse.

However it is very very important to understand that everything that comes out of the narcissist's mouth is all about supply.  And remember that they will turn everything around on you and use it against you later to gaslight you.  When they're done with you they will throw you away (maybe it's a mini-discard where they will return or the final discard and they are gone like the wind).  As usual, narcissists will devalue, dismiss, discard, and deny.  

You can't really fudge on this but I'm going to talk about some of the exceptions of breaking no contact later in this post. Ready or not,  for your own mental health and sanity here is what no contact looks like.

  • No phone calls or texting
  • No contact via a third party
  • Block them from all of your social media.  And yes! I mean black them: not just unfriend them because they can get a third party to creep you on Facebook or social media outlets. Likely a narcissist won't bring in somebody else to creep you on social media (so that is why you have to block them).
  • You can't stay friends with them. They weren't your friend to begin with.
  • Make sure your anger doesn't get the best of you to plot revenge
  • To get past the cravings to re-connect,  think back on the times where the individual had called you names, gaslighted you, maybe sometimes physically hurt you, and that will hopefully get you over the hump of reaching back out.
  • Stay busy. Staying busy will help you keep your mind off of things. Sometimes distraction is a good thing
  • Remember that your goal is to be completely free. Reaching out to this person in the short term will destroy almost ALL of your progress. Stay emotionally sober! 
  • Also you have to believe no contact will work.  Trust the process. If you don't believe in the process, then the process won't believe in you.  
  • Remember that you're dealing with a craving that gives an endorphin rush ifyou cave in. The anxiety is coming from a place of habituation. Practice  good self-talk by asking yourself: what you are afraid of by not contacting them?  Ask yoruself why you need to be treated poorly.  

These are a  few things that you can do to keep yourself emotionally safe. However I want to address the occasional reason why you would need to break no contact

You have to be very very solid in yourself when you do. If you don't feel very solid in yourself when it's necessary to break no contact, you're really going to have to lean on some of the things that you have learned to get you through it.

The Terms in Which You Break No Contact

Sometimes you just have to communicate with your narcissist especially if you have children, legal issues and other things that you really just can't get past! When you do that you have to remember to be a Grey rock. 

Joint custody, legal battles, selling of houses and assets, joint ownership in anything,  and even the workplace sometimes will be reasons why you have to break no contact.

What if your narcissist is dying or going through something as traumatic as brain surgery?  Breaking the silence depends on how you feel about managing the aftermath.  You gotta be strong!  And stay strong for yourself.

Maybe your narcissist is currently having a major health crisis and you were a part of that somewhere in your relationship with them. Sometimes you may have health information that your previous narcissist doesn't have or can't remember and whatnot.  It's okay to be human in these situations but be sure that you don't get sucked back in and ramp everything back up to the way it used to be.  

Please realize that Narcissists even at a stage of eminent death that you are still their supply. Once they get their supply from you they will run away or ignore you. It may feel like they really care because they're in desperate times! Death might be imminent or some major health issue might be causing them to be taken out of life for a while but don't be fooled.  Narcissists typically almost never take life threatening situations as  wake up call for changing their ways.  

I know from experience that you will noodle it around in your head wondering if you should go no contact or not. If you have amazing resolve and understand that you are still only supply to them (they may have downgraded to an 8 on the scale of psychopathology while they are close to death), then carefully break the silence, If you feel emotionally safe to do so.

This act of compassion on your part may give them peace while you are getting validation they are still the same "narcissistic abuser" they always were.  Don't go too far or too deep with them.  You can be a "gray rock" and still be an "empath" even when the narcissist is dying! 

Leave your personal life facts out of the picture.  Exercise your compassion, good judgment, share the knowledge as much as possible but as little as necessary and then go back to being a little gray rock and exit their lives.

Keep your guard up and your head held high.  In the interactions you have with the narcissist in this situation, you may even get more validation that leaving them was the best thing since sliced bread! You may further learn too that breaking no contact in this situation and then going back to no contact is awesome self love: and  you have come a long way since you have left them.  Are you on a great path of separation and staying away.

It takes a very very strong person to do this so if you don't feel like you're ready even in eminent death, please check in with your closest friends to talk about it. They will be your emotional checkpoint to be sure that you're strong enough to be able to have stay the course and not get sucked back into their web of abuse.  In some cases, it's ok to bring someone with you if you have mutual friends.  I hate that it could create triangulation but emotional safety at this point is of utmost importance.

Breaking your silence is really more for your edification than your narcissist's edification. You will be thriving and happy and offering information that is vital to their end of life. You may even have them thinking that you have made amends.  And regardless if you are their supply or not to give them a peaceful ending with empathy is showing dignity and humanity.  

We often forget that Narcissists will NEVER be aware that they behave the way they do.   In the end, if you forgive them for that which they do not know what they are doing, that is a beautiful thing.  

I also know from experience that when a narcissist is dying or they feel like they are brushing up against death, they are going to love bomb you like crazy.  

Hopefully you'll be wise enough to understand that they are doing this to try and suck you back in even as they are dying. Because they have never lived a life of authenticity! I'm going to say it again! They have never lived a life of authenticity! Everything has been a false front even up until their last breath and you are supply.  

What's really crazy is that no one else will see it but you. No one else will ever see the fact that they abused you or you have a different understanding of how they treated the world and how they treated people.  And if you told others who knew them, they wouldn't believe you.  Stay true to the truth and yourself.  

You are now set apart in your awareness of narcissistic behavior and at this point,  not to be revengeful or cruel, in your awareness you will find peace as they transition from this life to the next. 

You'll also get confirmation that your narcissist is still a narcissist because they may discard you the next day and blow you off!  Well, they got their fix, didn't they?! Hopefully you are recovered enough to realize that it garners a chuckle rather than frustration, annoyance, or anger.  

The dying narcissist is a different situation. As an "empath" I understand your humanity:  I understand that you want to perhaps send compassion to this monster. It's kind of like how compassion was shown to Frankenstein. You can have compassion with a monster but that doesn't mean you have to continue to be around them after you have said your peace.

When the narcissist finally passes away, you will stand strong in your awareness with the understanding that you offered compassion peace and love throughout the entire relationship. And even in the worst of times you were able to do that until their last breath. They will still die a narcissist, but you won't die with them as a victim of abuse anymore.  It's time to breathe a sigh of relief that they are finally at peace from their own psychological torture and you are no longer apartheid to it either.

Future Blog Post:  What You Feel After Your Narcissist Passes Away

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